|Raising Isaac||June 15, 2005|
I don’t have much of a job, even though I have a lot of education (if I do say so myself). Sometimes this really bothers me, but most of the time, I am just fine with my lack of a career. Here’s why.
As you can probably tell, I’ve put in my dues: my M.A. was a struggle, and at the time I was so immersed in the art world and art history that I found myself thinking at times that I would make a go of it, work in some auction house, work up to a museum role or a teaching position at a university. Looking back, I know those were pipe dreams, because I don’t really think my career is very important. That sounds terrible, I know, but fundamentally I question the value of a career, and I’ve come to the conclusion that it just doesn’t matter to me.
Miranda will no doubt castigate (new word of the day!) me for this view. I admit it’s not very feminist of me. But spiritually, I feel that my career is, and must be, a secondary priority. I just don’t believe that it is more important than getting married and having children, and I think my position is backed up by the Brethren and the Proclamation on the family. I know that I can (and will!) be a good mother, but if I let my career get too far along and too unwieldy, then when the time comes to let it go, I don’t want it to be a difficult choice.
My thinking is similar to the approach I was counseled as a young woman regarding temptation: don’t put yourself into situations where you know you will be tempted. Decide in advance to be obedient to the commandments. For now, that means working in the support dept., proofreading and photocopying. I’m not in my dream job, that’s for sure, but I’ve chosen to follow a different dream altogether.
Abraham struggled and waited for years before Isaac was born. Then, the Lord tested Abraham by asking him to sacrifice his child. I struggled to get my degree, and though it is difficult, I’m willing to put my career on the altar of sacrifice in order to have a brighter future remain possible. I just hope that my sacrifice will be acceptable.